Fix Me, I'm broken

[nilielh]

Title : Fix me, I'm broken
Rating : PG
Genre : Angst/Romance
Pairing : Ohmiya

He heard the news exactly the same time he had finally decided to beg Nino to take him back.

It was funny, how he'd came to the realization that he couldn't do this - pretending that he was okay with not being with Nino when he knew he wasn't. He knew he was at fault too, because he agreed on giving Nino the space he said he wanted, the freedom he said he no longer felt when he was with him.

He didn't know his love was that suffocating, so he gave in to Nino's pleas.

Let's just try, Satoshi, Nino had said then, while he was busy schooling his expression on the outside. He was good at doing that anyhow, and even Nino, whom personally admitted to know how to read his soul had failed to read the signs.

He didn't want to break up, but because Nino said that was what he wanted, so he agreed.

And now three months after the breakup, he just knew he couldn't do it anymore.

But then Nino gave him this.

"There were pictures, Nino," he muttered, tasting the bile in his tongue as Nino looked up at him in quiet disinterest; Ohno kind of want to kick someone in the face, if only to know where the fuck he stood in Nino's life. It had been months since their 'unofficial breakup' but Nino still kissed him like he hadn't kissed anyone as passionately as he did Ohno, still suck Ohno off in every available opportunity; but this, this...

"So what of it?" Nino asked, unperturbed, and Ohno really felt like kicking Nino's face this time.

He settled for direct questioning, since he knew that if he wasn't going to get any good answers from Nino, Ohno trusted Nino's eyes to betray him the minute he threw in the right questions his way.

"You were with her the whole time you said you wanted to think," he said, mentally calming himself at the images of Nino kissing her, holding her, pleasing her with all his might. "and those pictures looked like you stayed with her the whole fucking night, and the next whole fucking morning..."

Nino's eyes darkened, lips curling dangerously at the edges. "And?"

"You don't love me anymore, do you?" he asked, finally letting go of the pride he was sure he no longer possessed at this moment; he could feel himself trying to hold on for a little bit more just because he knew he couldn't just let Nino go without a fight.

Nino did look like he was hit by a lightning, standing up abruptly and grabbing Ohno's shoulders a little too tightly. 

"What the fuck are you saying?! You... Y-You don't know what I've... it wasn't like that, okay? She wasn't... she..."

He could feel his eyes sting at the sudden realization that he loved Nino too much to even want to think of losing him over some girl. 

He just loved Nino so much right now.

"Do you love her as much as you loved me?" he asked in a quiet tone and felt Nino's body stilled against him, his grasp tightening as he looked him in the eye.

Nino chuckled, exasperated, fond and gentle; Ohno's tears were warm and unfamiliar against his own cheeks when Nino leaned in to brush them off with the back of his hand.

"You're dumb," he said, whispering his words through Ohno's ears just as his lips dried Ohno's tears; "she was just a friend, okay? and no, I never loved her as much as I loved you because I was never in love with her; I only love you, you moron,"

Ohno's body shook as Nino held him close. "But the pictures - ?"

Nino chuckled once and kissed the corners of his trembling mouth.

"Was her idea," Nino said around a smug grin, pecking Ohno's lips twice as Ohno looked terminally confused. "she said that's one good way to know if you're still in love with me or not," he said, arms wounding around Ohno's waist as Ohno buried his face against the crook of Nino's neck. "and by the looks of it, I'm guessing her plan worked,"

"I love you," Ohno confessed, ghosting his words directly to Nino's skin as Nino settled his hands around Ohno. "I'll always love you even when you say you don't love me anymore..."

Nino brought one hand to cradle the back of Ohno's neck and placed a loving kiss on top of Ohno's head.

"Don't be stupid, Satoshi," he said, pulling Ohno closer, "I love you just as much..."