[Drabble Series] Forbidden Volume 2

[nilielh]

Title : [Drabble Series] Forbidden Vol 2 - Part 1
Rating : NC17
Genre : AU
Pairing : Ohno/Nino
Summary : Here was where it all fell apart.
Disclaimer : fiction, yo!
Warning : Incest

 

Half an hour passed, though it felt like they’ve been holding each other long enough to read each other’s minds; he had been trying to keep his hands from tracing his brother’s face, because he knew that if he did, he would only end up weeping, and he knew that Kazu’s wept enough for them both even though Kazu hadn’t really meant showing it.

It was wrong to want each other so much, but that fact hadn’t stopped them from doing so. But now that he knew the impact of being found out would be for his brother, he had to make the first move.

It pained him to know how much he’s willing to sacrifice just to make sure Kazu wouldn’t have to face the humiliation, the anger from their parents, the disappointments. Just thinking about not being able to hold Kazu like this was painful enough, but by giving this up, he knew he was doing them both a huge favor, and so he would start by doing something he supposed he should have done the first time this happened.

“N-Niichan, what are you --?”

“Enough,” he said, cutting his brother’s words and immediately feeling miserable when Kazu stilled against him; he knew how much it would hurt after this, but he also knew that stopping now would make everything a lot easier to bear than wait until they were caught.

“You c-can’t mean that,” Kazu murmured, his voice hopeful and scared and Satoshi wished he had been strong enough to resist his brother then, than see him break like this because of his stupidity. He knew what his brother was trying to do as he’d done this a hundred times for him to know exactly the meaning behind those of his brother’s every single movement.

Feeling his brother’s warm breath grazing the skin of his neck, Satoshi knew that his brother was half-heartedly trying to melt his resolve, to change his mind – anything, aside from this.

He reached over to touch his brother’s face, his fingertips tracing his brother’s skin as if he was re-learning his brother’s features just by touch alone. He smiled bitterly and closed his eyes. “I wasn’t supposed to love you like this – to want you more than I’m allowed to, but I do, and I knew that sooner or later I would have to force myself not to want you as much, but just -- not this soon…” he started, shifting to rest his face against his brother’s hair and breathing his brother’s scent in the way he’s always done in the past.

It’s heartbreaking to know he had to give this up, and even painful to realize that he’d have to do it now.

His brother let out a sound that was painfully heartbreaking, and he suddenly felt like he was standing at the edge of a cliff, and that the only thing that was keeping him from falling over to his own death was his beloved brother’s voice.

He sniffed through his brother’s hair, letting his hands dropped to cradle Kazu close to him; his hands roamed all over his brother’s body, letting his fingers explored the familiar curves and bumps, trying to commit them to memory as his brother shuddered violently against him.

Then Kazu was turning over, leaning up and catching Satoshi off guard by clinging unto Satoshi’s shoulder, and pulling up to drag his quivering lips along Satoshi’s chin.

“K-Kazu,”

“Kiss me,” Kazu muttered brokenly, begging, his words shaking along with the rest of him. “Kiss me one last time and go, Niichan,”
Satoshi shut his eyes close and grabbed the back of his brother’s nape.

“God, I love you so much,”