Almost doesn't count

Title : [Drabble] Almost doesn't count
Rating : R
Genre : Angst?
Pairing : Ohmiya
Disclaimer : fiction, yo!

"Let go," Ohno says without meeting his eyes, fingers flexing and his lips pursed into a thin line; Nino likes to think he could do something, anything, if only to erase that look on the older man's face.

Nino opens his mouth to say something, but he only ended up mumbling incoherently, enough for Ohno to spare him a second glance.

"O-Ohchan, I..." he starts, rigging his brain for something good to say but finds it harder to even come up with anything wise to utter when Ohno is looking at him like he prefers anything other than being this close to Nino.

Nino's throat closes up with emotions he could hardly suppress as he allows his fingers skate across Ohno's wrist, the tight curl in his chest increases ten folds when Ohno smiles grimly.

"If you came here to apologize -- don't -- save your breath and your lies because I don't need them; I've had enough of those crap to last me five lifetimes and standing here next to you makes me sick. So please, Nino, if you still care for me, like honestly care for me, you will go. I don't -- I c-can't even look at you right now without feeling like I want to punch the hell out of you everytime you move your mouth to speak. I hate you so much, do you know that? and I hate the fact that I'm still so fucking in love with you even after everything you have done." Ohno says without a pause, snatching his hand away and roughly threading his fingers through his hair to probably calm himself down.

Nino wants to cry but finds it hard to even do as much, as Ohno takes a step back and regards Nino an almost bone-crushing, stomach-clenchingly sad smile.

"You know how much I love you, Nino, but I guess it's never enough for you; now I don't think there's anything you could say to make me believe that you came here to apologize, to compromise, because you still haven't made up your mind. Go back to him if that is what would make you happy, but please, stop running back to me when you think you have nowhere else to go. I want to be there for you when you need me, but what you're doing to me is too much. I... I don't think I can bear it any longer,"

"I'm sorry,"

Ohno smiles, leans in and kisses Nino's lips softly. "Me too," he says, pulls Nino towards him and embraces him briefly before letting him go; he turns on his heels and Nino feels his heart shatters painfully inside his chest.

And I hope you stay to hear what I came to here to say, his heart whispers but Ohno is no longer listening; because I finally gathered the courage to leave him, knowing that it is you who I want to spend the rest of my life with.

I love you, Ohchan.